Sometimes I am sad at how I ended up this way. I feel chained to my life. Weighted down by the insanity in my mind, the thoughts of sadness, desperation, helplessness and past choices. You can laugh one moment only to realize that nothing has really changed. You want to win at life, you want to feel free from the rat race, fell down the dark forest that surrounds your wayward mind.
Then I sit down in silence to realize these are my thoughts and that my life is overrun by them. So I gently walk away from them, without turning back, and slowly reappear in the present moment. I hear the sounds of the cricket, the gentle howl of the wind and then I affirmatively gaze at the wealth of life that is this unyielding moment. I realize that change is inevitable and so I smile again. And life repeats itself!
Not a Hero 